It's been a week full of successes and failures. Extremes. Not much in between.
On Tuesday, my friend and I decided to create goals to reclaim our bodies. I decided to give up sugar for two weeks and to get on a workout schedule. I have until the end of June to lose 5 pounds. That night, I also decided I needed to give up the caffeine as much as possible. (I went cold turkey.)
You see, I never was much of a caffeine drinker... until Baby Boy came along. Now, it's the only thing that keeps me functioning. But, I've noticed my milk supply going down quite a bit. And I don't know what to attribute that to. So I decided it was time to ease up.
SUCCESS: My results so far? I've had a headache every. single. day. Mostly at night, though. I've been eating much better, so I feel great in that regard. But the headaches. Oh the headaches. I've been going to bed between 8-10 every night. (More on the caffeine story in a minute.)
SUCCESS: I've gotten my miles up to 2.5 without walking. Today I had my best run yet. Not my best time, but I was on a treadmill. What made it so great? Today, for the first time since Baby Boy was born, I felt strong. I felt like the body I remember was showing up, reminding me that if I keep at it, I can get it done. (Also, I was inspired by Catherine who ran 3 miles in 21 minutes! 21 minutes, you guys!!!! Unbelievable.) I'm so excited to see what my body will become. I just need patience. (Don't we all?)
SUCCESS: It's no secret that I was more than a little surprised that Baby Boy wasn't a cuddly baby. In fact, other than for food, I've always felt like he didn't really need me. I know that's extreme. But it's been difficult to think you'd have this baby to rock in your arms, and snuggle, who would rest his head on your shoulders... only to have a baby that does none of that. I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel a little dejected. But this week, that all changed, too. In the mornings, he will reach out to me to sit on my lap as we build a block tower so he can knock it down. He holds my fingers when I rock him to sleep. And when I pick him up from a nap or first thing in the morning, he puts his head on my shoulder as he's waking up. I may or may not have cried.
So, what were the failures? Well... there was an incident the other night. What do you get when you put recently-very-mobile Baby Boy on the bed while you turn your back to fix the crib bumper so he doesn't get hurt?
This.
Our little monkey done rolled himself off the bed. He's got a nice rug burn down the entire length of his nose. He took it like a champ. He was pretty upset for about 20 minutes, but since then, he's been his normal, happy self.
FAILURE: Tonight Baby Boy and I went to Target to get a few things (or ten). We were there for about an hour. I finally had time to pick out some Mother's Day cards. (Good ones are hard to find these days!) And I am a sucker for the dollar bins. By this time, Will was getting tired of sitting, and really, it was time for him to go to bed. And the all-too-familiar headache was coming on strong. I decided that since I needed to get some stuff done tonight, I had to knock this headache out with caffeine. So while checking out, my mind was on the food counter's pop machine. I paid for our stuff and headed to get a drink. Then, we walked out to the car. I went to put Baby Boy in the car only to realize that I didn't have our bag of stuff. In fact, I never grabbed it off the counter at the register. So, I turned around and walked back into the store. Unfortunately, the cashier said the person behind me must've grabbed it by mistake. But since I had my receipt, I could go to customer service and see what they would do. Let me tell you, they REALLY made my night. They let me go back through the store and pick up every single thing that was on my receipt. (Luckily, there was one of each Mother's Day card left that I originally purchased!)
Hopefully I can nip these headaches in the bud, so I can actually get some stuff accomplished around here.
On Tuesday, my friend and I decided to create goals to reclaim our bodies. I decided to give up sugar for two weeks and to get on a workout schedule. I have until the end of June to lose 5 pounds. That night, I also decided I needed to give up the caffeine as much as possible. (I went cold turkey.)
You see, I never was much of a caffeine drinker... until Baby Boy came along. Now, it's the only thing that keeps me functioning. But, I've noticed my milk supply going down quite a bit. And I don't know what to attribute that to. So I decided it was time to ease up.
SUCCESS: My results so far? I've had a headache every. single. day. Mostly at night, though. I've been eating much better, so I feel great in that regard. But the headaches. Oh the headaches. I've been going to bed between 8-10 every night. (More on the caffeine story in a minute.)
SUCCESS: I've gotten my miles up to 2.5 without walking. Today I had my best run yet. Not my best time, but I was on a treadmill. What made it so great? Today, for the first time since Baby Boy was born, I felt strong. I felt like the body I remember was showing up, reminding me that if I keep at it, I can get it done. (Also, I was inspired by Catherine who ran 3 miles in 21 minutes! 21 minutes, you guys!!!! Unbelievable.) I'm so excited to see what my body will become. I just need patience. (Don't we all?)
SUCCESS: It's no secret that I was more than a little surprised that Baby Boy wasn't a cuddly baby. In fact, other than for food, I've always felt like he didn't really need me. I know that's extreme. But it's been difficult to think you'd have this baby to rock in your arms, and snuggle, who would rest his head on your shoulders... only to have a baby that does none of that. I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel a little dejected. But this week, that all changed, too. In the mornings, he will reach out to me to sit on my lap as we build a block tower so he can knock it down. He holds my fingers when I rock him to sleep. And when I pick him up from a nap or first thing in the morning, he puts his head on my shoulder as he's waking up. I may or may not have cried.
So, what were the failures? Well... there was an incident the other night. What do you get when you put recently-very-mobile Baby Boy on the bed while you turn your back to fix the crib bumper so he doesn't get hurt?
This.
FAILURE: Tonight Baby Boy and I went to Target to get a few things (or ten). We were there for about an hour. I finally had time to pick out some Mother's Day cards. (Good ones are hard to find these days!) And I am a sucker for the dollar bins. By this time, Will was getting tired of sitting, and really, it was time for him to go to bed. And the all-too-familiar headache was coming on strong. I decided that since I needed to get some stuff done tonight, I had to knock this headache out with caffeine. So while checking out, my mind was on the food counter's pop machine. I paid for our stuff and headed to get a drink. Then, we walked out to the car. I went to put Baby Boy in the car only to realize that I didn't have our bag of stuff. In fact, I never grabbed it off the counter at the register. So, I turned around and walked back into the store. Unfortunately, the cashier said the person behind me must've grabbed it by mistake. But since I had my receipt, I could go to customer service and see what they would do. Let me tell you, they REALLY made my night. They let me go back through the store and pick up every single thing that was on my receipt. (Luckily, there was one of each Mother's Day card left that I originally purchased!)
Hopefully I can nip these headaches in the bud, so I can actually get some stuff accomplished around here.
Maybe for you... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GGXzlRoNtHU
ReplyDelete^ just kidding, of course. It is exciting to see Will's development! I can't believe he is already crawling and knocking over the blocks. I understand how good it has to feel to be wanted by your child. I think Allie is finally getting to the point where she recognizes us. And that alone feels amazing! Just because your child snuggles does not always make you feel needed (but I get what you mean)... it's the point where he/she reaches out for you or cries because he/she wants you that will make you really feel needed. Can't wait for that part.
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